Backfire
Waiting in the dark
Waiting for the light
Waiting for something to change your mind
Don’t you ever come back
And her voice, like rolling thunder, echoes in my head
Another wasted life
Another wasted year
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Reinvention of Pain
I never was
There at all
You watched me how
I took the fall
I reinvent the pain
And let it rush through my veins
If only I could remember
I would shout your name
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Echoes
The echo of your voice
Rolling from the mountain
Crushing in my mind
And the echo
Of your voice
Rolling from the mountain
Still ringing in my mind
And the echo
Of your voice
Crushing in my mind
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Inner Judgement
I never could have guessed
How cruel you would be
It was all just a lie from the start
From the outside
It looked pretty rad
Your bio sounded like an ad
It was all just a lie from the start
If I would judge you by your inner soul
You would fail
If I would judge you by your bookshelf
You would be a joke
‘cause that is what you are
One big pathetic lie
What if I was faking and messing you around
What if I told you I was telling you lies
An hour in the shower
But my face still looks the same
Please can you teach me how to play your cunning game
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Dangerous Liaisons
It is a game
I have to play
But the rules
They fade away
You are caught
In your lies
Everything you touch
Eventually dies
It all dies
And then I was
Just one of them
Another shadow
Cast by the sun
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In the Vacuum of your Mind
You wanted it for yourself
That little piece of heaven
You were scared to lose again
What you had lost before
Trying too hard
Not to share your heart
You locked it up instead
And fed the demons in my head
It is quiet
In the vacuum of your mind
Stuck in the image
Of what you left behind
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Through the Fire
Learned from the master
Through the fire to the light
That spark in the distance
Has always been inside
Through the fire to the light
I was never there at all
I was never really there
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Blame it on the Moon
I'd rearrange the stars
‘cause I know you believe in it
I redefine myself
So I know I could fit
In that little mind of yours
Blame it on the moon
Blame it on the stars
When you can’t sleep
When life cuts so deep
Look at the sky and see
Where you want to be
I'd rearrange the stars and make a wish
I’ll be the brightest star for you
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Opposite Choice
What if I was wrong
What if I was right
But I still think about you every night
And the pain, it never goes away
And the pain, is here to stay
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Dream Machine
You were in my dreams last night
Even then I was surprised
You acted like you didn’t know
You broke my heart the day before
I could easily
Invent a machine
So you can push the buttons
And fulfill your dreams
I wish I could erase you from my mind
But I can’t
‘cause you are burning like a fire
There’s a war going on in my head
And it is raging
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Blue-Devilled
a fit of depression;
thus blue-devilled adj.,
depressed [blue adj., feelings that ‘bedevil’ the sufferer].
“The line ‘hell is other people’ by the French philosopher Sartre reflects the idea that human relationships and interactions can be extremely complex, challenging, and often lead to inner conflicts.
It encapsulates Sartre's idea that our interactions with others can be a source of existential conflict and unease, as we grapple with the tension between our own freedom and the influence of others on our sense of self.
While a philosopher embarks on the quest for truth, the realm of art offers a captivating contrast – it thrives not on yielding direct solutions or answers, but on exploring the profound inquiries that life presents. This is the allure of art: it delves into the grand tapestry of existence, yet is not limited to providing definitive answers or solutions.
Sartre's iconic expression, oft-quoted yet sometimes misinterpreted, becomes a fertile ground for exploration throughout this album. Within its tracks, I intricately weave the manifold layers inherent in the phrase, allowing both the essence of the devil and the essence of Sartre's concept of hell to manifest within the music, verses, and even the sample sources of ‘Blue-Devilled’.
The diabolical force mirrored in the gazes of others perhaps mirrors the uncharted depths of our own selves. ‘Blue-Devilled’ becomes an expedition, inviting listeners to traverse the landscapes of the soul, without the constraints of predetermined conclusions. In this journey, the album captures the essence of Sartre's enigmatic phrase, guiding us through the labyrinthine corridors of introspection and reminding us that the reflections we encounter in the eyes of others might just reflect the intricate facets of our own being.”
Awakening
Break out
Karma Oyster
Memories are hard to digest
Growing like a cancer under your chest
You are chained
It’s holding you together
So you won’t break
Revenge
Your bittersweet revenge
In the depths of the sea
In the depths of your soul
You’re growing stronger
Like a pearl in an oyster waiting to shine
Revenge
Your bittersweet revenge
Friendly Fire
You woke up with a devil inside
Like the dark side of the moon
You have a part in the shadows too
You’re on a mission of self-destruction
Aiming your fire at me
Now there’s a big black hole
Where your soul used to be
You’ve got a devil inside
Huis Clos
Hell is other people
The reflection of my soul
I hate to see
How you’ve become me
A darkness within me
My personal hell
The reflection I see
A twisted version of me
You’re a devil in disguise
Reflected in your eyes
A demon’s gaze
A devil in disguise
The weight of your judgment
I can see it in your eyes
A sea of faces
But nowhere to hide
You’re a devil in disguise
Prophecies
Wakened by the words of god
Looking for an answer in the sky
Trapped inside the wisdom you wanted to believe
Caught between the pavement and the clear blue sky
Did you make up your world?
Have you made up your mind?
Conquer my soul
Conquer my heart
Conquer my love
Conquer me
Make me believe
Lobotomy
I want you the fuck out of my head
Miss Destruction
I’ll break your heart
Before you break mine
Violence is raging inside
Your words are lethal
Killing from within
Your love is a loaded gun
Now I can see inside your head
It’s an ocean of fire
A desert of pain
Your wave of destruction kills me every time
If this is what you want me to be
I will play along
Your wave of destruction kills me every time
Mirror View
I see myself reflected in your eyes
I see my thoughts reflected in your mind
I see my dreams reflected in your soul
I see my own image when I watch you fall
This is what I hate about you
This is what I hate about you
(Everything I hate about myself)
Devil’s Gaze
When you give me the silent treatment
I know you hear the demons speak
My ghosts from the past, you made them devils
Haunting your head more than mine
The devil I see has always been me
Your eyes were the mirrors for me to see
Give up your dreams
Escape from your nightmare
Watch it crumble
Watch it die
My heart starts beating but then it crashes
Watch it crumble
Watch it die
I am in your head
I am the hell inside you
The devil I see has always been me
Your eyes were the mirrors for me to see
The devil has always been me
A Dog from Hell
Love is a dog from hell
Turning your soul inside out
It’s just more of the same
I didn’t want to hurt you
You didn’t want to hurt me
Love is a dog from hell
Turning your soul inside out
What you thought was a ghost was already dead
Waiting for the clash
I’m waiting for the clash
I’ve become like you
I’m a dog from hell
It’s just more of the same
Waiting for the clash
I’m waiting for the clash
I didn’t want to hurt you
You didn’t want to hurt me
How was I supposed to know
That it would end like this?
Push the rock
Break your back
Roll again
Crawl back
You wake
You climb
You break
You fall
Forty-five, fifty-five
This is the time of your life
There’s a hangman waiting
At the end of the line
A thousand lives you never led
They’re screaming in your head
I just keep rolling back
I just keep falling back
Forty-five, fifty-five
This is the time of your life
There’s a hangman waiting
At the end of the line
Push the rock
Break your back
Roll again
Crawl back
I keep falling back to where it all started
I keep falling back to where it all started
I keep falling back to where it all started
I keep falling back to where it all started
Forty-five, fifty-five
This is the time of your life
There’s a hangman waiting
At the end of the line
I just keep falling back to where it all started
Damage done
I never should have been here
I never should have come
I tore apart the fabric
And now the damage is done
I am dead inside…
Time has taught me how to wait
How to suffer, how to break
And I never should have come to this place
Patience wears like tattered lace
It feels like dying inside
I never felt so goddamn alone
It feels like dying inside
I have been here for way too fucking long
I want to go
I don’t want to die alone
I have been here way too many times
I am lost
I don’t want to die alone
Bound in ritual, lost in time
I built the night so I could shield my eyes
And the heartache still cuts the same
Still the same poison running through my veins
I am dead inside…
I have been here for way too fucking long
I want to go
I don’t want to die alone
I have been here way too many times
I am lost
I don’t want to die alone
Whispers in the Night Sky
Somewhere in the night sky
Stars are waiting to align
But when I reach for them
I always fall back down
I scream into the silence
But the silence never breaks
I bleed into the shadows
But the shadows never fade
I always fall back
To the ground
To the start
I’m always falling down
To the ground
To the start
Somewhere in the night sky
Stars are waiting to align
But when I reach for them
I always fall back down
And I whisper to the night
But the night just turns away
I reach across the distance
But your light has slipped away
I always fall back
To the ground
To the start
I’m always falling down
To the ground
To the start
You turn to stone
and walk away
Once again
You fade away
You're so cold
You're so cruel
I'm lost again
In the void
You break my skin
And bleed me dry
You turn my love
Into a lie
A cruel game
On repeat
You just wait
Until I bleed
But when I look into your eyes
I see a stranger’s face
Tear it out
Burn it down
Tear it out
Burn it down
Cut it deep
Make it real
Cut it deep
Make it real
I will tear you down
I will tear you down
I will tear you down
I will tear you down
But when I look into your eyes
I see a stranger’s face
Rückwärts ft Calva Y Nada
(words by Constantin Warter)
Wir gehen rückwärts
Wir gehen rückwärts in die Nacht
Wir gehen rückwärts in die Nacht
Der Wahnsinn umarmt die Welt
Der Wahnsinn zerquetscht die Welt
Der Wahnsinn
Wir gehen rückwärts in die Nacht
Abgrund!
Abgrund
Augen auf!
Zu spät!
Abgrund!
Nacht!
Nacht!
Silk Skin
She walks through shadows, cloaked in night,
A queen of nothing, bathing in light.
No love can chain her, no touch can bind,
Her silk skin whispers, aching my mind.
You pull me close
And then you push me away…
I want to touch her, her silk skin
I want to feel her from within
She wears her freedom like a crown,
While my desire drags me down.
You get under my skin
You pull me close
And then you push me away…
Your skin is my sin
Clair-Obscur
You let me in
I taste your soul
I reach but you keep fading away
Your ghost is crawling
Right under my skin
I tear my nails into my fists
And try to forget you
And when I was inside of you
I swore that we were one
How could I be so stupid
You called it just a benefit
They say you die while learning
Guess I must be dead by now
It feels like my heart stops beating
‘Cause I lost you again somehow
I wanted this to matter
I wanted this to last
But love was just a whisper
And it died too fast
Will you hold my hand
Before I slip away?
Can I touch you one last time
Before it all decays?
Did you ever consider
That I was broken too?
I wanted this to be forever
But it meant nothing to you
You breathe me in…
You spit me out…
Will you hold my hand
Before I slip away?
Can I touch you one last time
Before it all decays?
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Götterfall
Götter oben, alt und krumm.
Sie sehen mich – doch bleiben stumm.
Meine Kugeln zum Firmament.
Doch kein Tod, der Götter kennt.
Und die Götter – sie verraten mich.
Sie verspotten mich ins Gesicht.
Ich schieße meine Kugeln in das Licht.
Doch Götter sterben einfach nicht.
Ketten selbst um mich gelegt.
Blind gemacht, was mich bewegt.
Ich verlier’ mich, Schritt für Schritt.
Ohne Seele und ohne Herz.
Und die Götter – sie verraten mich.
Sie verspotten mich ins Gesicht.
Ich schieße meine Kugeln in das Licht.
Doch Götter sterben einfach nicht.
Götter sterben nicht.
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Virtual Goddess ft Johan van Roy
I can’t believe that this is you
another mask
another view
a million lies
million eyes
million ways to shine
giving light to the monster inside of you
you’re a virtual goddess
I’m your virtual god
I’m like a god, like a dog, crawling at your feet
I want to go, want to fall, deep inside you
a million lies
million eyes
another million views
feeding the sick motherfucker inside of me
you’re a virtual goddess
I’m your virtual god
you’re pixel-perfect
you’re hollow and dead
you’re a virtual goddess
I’m your virtual god
They sell us headlines, painted with dread,
A loop of explosions and rivers of red.
The truth is a weapon, polished and sold,
Lies burn brighter when the narrative’s cold.
Slipping through the cracks of your colour tv…
Reality
Stranger than fiction
Reality
Louder than noise
Numb to the blood, we stare at the screen,
A silent procession of the obscene.
A soldier’s cry, lost in the haze,
Marching through wars in a meaningless maze.
The earth cries in silence…
Slipping through the cracks of your colour tv…
Reality
Stranger than fiction
Reality
Louder than noise
Reality
Nature turns to ashes
Reality
Rivers run black
